#BLACKGIRLMAGIC #BLACKGIRLSROCK - SZA By JADA PINKETT SMITH For V MAG!!!
ST. LOUIS, MO native Singer-Songwriter SZA is The SOUND Of NOW and is interviewed by fellow Artist JADA PINKETT SMITH for V113 - THE MUSIC ISSUE!!!
Here are a few interview interludes:
JPS Music is such an influence, as a transmission of what people take in vibrationally. What is it that you look to transmit in your music?
SZA In my music, it’s really hard to be super-conscious; I’m in another state of consciousness when I’m making music. But when I’m my most effective, that mode of healing is when I get to perform and see everybody. I send out and absorb love. Meet-and-greets are a new thing I never got to do before. I meet, like, 200 people before each show. We hug each other and really look at each other. Healing and loving people, I guess that’s me.
JPS When you’re on the road, how do you keep yourself centered? For me, that’s one of the most difficult aspects of what we do: being away from everyday life and surroundings, from our grounded, rooted space.
SZA Meditation is the easiest way to re-center and ground yourself. Sometimes, I get really tired; I feel like I’m hitting a wall I’m about to break through. I just know I have to keep going because there’s about to be some sort of weird endurance experience after. I’d never been on tour before; I never did 40 or 50 cities. I just had to build calmness. I talk to my mom a lot. If I feel super chaotic, she usually calls me first. She always knows.
PS Why were you bullied?
SZA I was awkward. I’m super sensitive, and my mother made me extra sensitive because she’s just so unapologetically loving. I’ve realized some people don’t hug in their families, or say that they love each other all day. My family tells me they love me all day; I’m hyper-affectionate, laying it on other people, just because it’s what we do in my house. But in the world, that was weird, and it was really difficult to be super sensitive and hyper-open. It was just frightening. I guess my mom represented something that made me feel weak. I felt like, this is why I’m hurt. When I got older, I realized, Oh shit, the whole world is wrong and my mom is right. I sort of panicked. I needed to align myself with the way she lives her life in order to better understand her. Then, when I got to better understand her, I started really loving and cherishing her in a different way, like my sensei. It’s a whole different vibe.
JPS You were nominated for a lot of Grammys. How did that feel?
SZA That was a crazy lesson: Although you may want to quantify yourself by this landmark, God will not allow it. Be grateful for where you’re at, this was just an indicator you’re doing a good job; now stay fucking focused. My granny and mom were there, and it was the first time my mom didn’t know what to say. My mom is so well-spoken, and she was struggling to find the words. I had to perform after all the news broke. It was definitely the most clear, obvious test anyone’s ever given me: God’s just going at me like, so you lost all five [awards], they’re gonna announce you were nominated for all five right before you go onstage, and you have to do a good job and believe in yourself, are you ready? I’m just like, OK, no doubt.