#BLACKGIRLMAGIC: DUTCHESS LATTIMORE On ROLLING OUT MAG!!!
LINCOLNTOWN, NC-native Celebrity Tattoo Artist/REaliTV Star/Model CRYSTANA DUTCHESS LATTIMORE stars on VH1 RealiTV show, BLACK INK CREW, and; she covers the current issue of ROLLING OUT Magazine!!!
Here are some interview interludes:
Have you found that with your increased popularity and visibility that youíre finding out more about yourself through your new experiences?
Yes, it has. It’s allowing me to really live life in a way that’s full. The more things you experience, the more opportunities you give yourself to find out who you really are. It’s like when you were asking earlier about being in a public relationship, and the breakup … I just feel like when you’re in a committed relationship, it can be hard sometimes to focus on yourself. When you’re like me, you spend all of your time focusing on that person, and doing everything for them. I’m not saying it was right, but that’s how I was living my life. And I do think that I in some ways lost myself in it. And I know that there are a lot of women out there that are just like me. And it took a while to get there … and I’m still trying to get there.
Where are you trying to get?
To a place where I can confidently say that I love myself. I’m not sure if I’ve ever known how to fully do that. And it wasn’t until now, when I’m looking in the mirror, that I can see that I need to work harder at doing that. I can look back on so many things, and see where I wasn’t really loving myself in the way that I should. It kinda makes me sad to think that I never realized it until now. Better late than never, I guess …
Why do you think that it was such a hard lesson for you to learn?
Loving yourself as a woman is sometimes so hard because we’re so used to putting all the people we love before us. I have been so guilty of this — but if you love yourself first, and the most, next to God — you will allow more people to love you. More importantly, you will stop seeking the validation and the love you may have thought you needed. So I’m working my way through it, and working my way through this process slowly, graciously and gratefully.
Is the version of you that viewers see on the show the real you?
No, it’s not. Because the things that you see a lot of times are reactions to situations that I would never put myself in, in a million years. And I know it’s coming, and I try to remind myself not to let it get the best of me, but you can be pushed and pushed and pushed, until you finally just respond because you’ve reached your breaking point. That’s the part to me that’s unfair.
I understand how that might feel to be pushed past your limits when youíre in those moments. But what happens when time has passed, and then the show airs? Does that make it a tougher pill to swallow in those situations?
Having to relive situations that you have already experienced in real life is hard. When you deal with it in real life, you have an entirely different perception of things because you’re in the moment. When we watch the show — even though I try my best not to watch — it can complicate things.
We have heard that you are going to be co-hosting a radio show with DJ Waffles. What prompted that?